I’ve been diving into something… different today. The demon from Avalon’s face has been haunting me nonstop & my head has been throbbing the whole time. But I finally got her out of my brain!! I just had to stop fighting it and lean in hard.
I pulled out a polaroid from the collection left by our mysterious dearly departed dude and used that as the backdrop. Then I snipped out a pic of a demon mannequin from that halloween store catalogue Pr0xy gave me. The mannequin body is a perfect match honestly. It’s weird how much it looks like her. Then I grabbed a stack of magazines and cut out the snake, gas mask & head knocker.
I felt like a mad scientist making it. But it felt good… right. Maybe also kinda crazy or surreal? It also felt right to scribble some notes and words that vibe with my visions. It seems weird but I know, this demon chick is a liar. Like as a defining trait. I guess it’s not surprising considering she goes around wearing a snake lmao.
And guess what? Ever since I finished this thing, my head is lighter. Almost clear. Might actually get some quality z’s for once. But it seems like a bad sign too, like I’m doing what the crystal wants me to do. But I really don’t give a shit rn. I have to do something to cope with what’s happening to my brain and I don’t see how making art could be hurting anyone…
Maybe we can finalize our next move. I really miss Jeff. Gotta figure out how I can find him without killing me and Pr0xy in the process.
Twin said he’s hosting Spaces all week so I guess go listen to his music & ramblings. Once in a while he says something that hits.
